Sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying

It's been forever since I've been on this. I have so much on my mind, and no one to really tell it too. I think I've learned a lot about myself and my friends the past few weeks. I don't know who I've become. It's so weird how things can change so quickly. It's like, nothing ever really happend. I've only felt this way like, once before and that was a while ago. So, I don't really know how this works, and I can't get myself to admit it. I've finally picked out a college, and can't wait to go. FIDM will be my new home. One year in Irvine and one year in LA. I'm so stoked and right now, that's the only thing keeping me from screwing up. Other than Jasmine's birthday party of course. I just don't know what to get her. But, she's my best friend, so she deserves anything and everything she wants. That's all.
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-Janelle

Crack A Bottle

I miss Jasmineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I haven't been on this thing in sooo long, I missed it.
School is gay, I love my friends. I can't wait for camp next friday.
And yeah :)

-J

I put in 100%

I just want to cry.

I don't even know why I try to be friends with you.

2nd week

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I have had nothing but the worst headaches and annoyance of everything! We are back in conservatory, the first day, I was already annoyed as f__k! Anyway, today was something to write about. I woke up this morning thinking today was going to be a good day, I was in a good mood and felt really pretty. I went to school, seeing her, I don't even know what you are my friend. Emily and Andrea, awh, beautiful! I go to Mr. Grant's class, I was on a role, until someone who I am very interested in ( well no more ) said something mean to me. Ah, I hate boys! French was woddeulrhwah fine. Lunch goes by extremely fast, I hate it. I am not the type of girl to get jealous, but lately I have been, I also hate that ten times more! I noticed it so much today, I got so depressed. In a previous blog I was very angry with the world, mentioned that all everyone has become are druggies and alcoholics. Well, once again, here I go.....You are and I am sick of it. That is all that you guys talk about, like honestly, Im horrified. I got all sad again, finally school ended and the best friends knew something was wrong with me. All the sudden I just start crying in the hall way, for no apparent reason, well sorta'. I love getting calls from Emily and Drea rambling on about how much they love me, think I am a good friend, and all the above. My day got better in a second I swear. My daddy picked me up, we drove around then decided to go see Jake play his first high school football game. Damn, that kid is good at everything I tell ya.I had so much fun at that game even though, I was in riverside, in the outfits I wear, at a high school I have never been to. Hahah, the whole varsity football team was sitting behind me and holy they were HUGE and very attractive ( well most)! They were the funniest things in the world! Then I had these little black guys sitting next to me with their chains and are like " runn nigga runn" haha it was great! I am not going to lie, that is something I miss out of a normal high school experience. Thank god I have my normal h.s friends.  

I have come up with a fall back career if my singing career doesn't take place. HAh, it will so I don't have to worry, but I like to have idea's in mind! At first I was going to be a Crime Scene Investigator, but I'm definitely not smart enough. So I thought since I love food so much I would be one of those people who critics restaurants, but then I was just informed they have to write articles. So the first thing to come up with since there was nothing else......was a STRIPPER! My mother came up with that one actually, as a joke! Haha, until today I found my calling. As most of you know, I love to be creative and design things. Well, I was decorating a wedding and I was so picky on everything! I am going to be a wedding planner! How fun would that be! I think so! Goodddddddd.

Well, I love coming home to a message from Vazquez about us and how " no one understands our nunstable emotions" but only her and I. It is pretty great.

Tomorrow I will be singing at a wedding, which should be pretty exciting.

Sunday, I am going to go to Emmes house at 6 in the morning, lay on her bed, talk and cry with her. Then go to Laguna Niguel and raise money for Cameron<3

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-xoxo

It's been to long

First day of school was kind of a bust. There was no new people! AH, whatever! It has been three days and I swear It has been like 100! It felt like we just got back from spring break or something, Im not sure. Good thing we had no conservatory this week or I would just be dead. At 2:30 when I get home I feel like It's a long day and want to sleep! But, conservatory is about to be happening start next tuesday, great! I have been waking up at 6 a.m compared to the whole summer I woke up at like 3 p.m. Haha, this week I have been trying to look descent and let me tell you that will all end very soon! LOL. Now I am off to school. Devon Taylor, you were a lot of fun last year. It is different without you crazy boys there. Good luck to the people who are going to college<3

- xoxo jasmine

My new home

I know exactly what I want to do after high school. A while ago I thought modeling was my "calling" but I know that ship has sailed. I can't wait to graduate and finally move on and do things that I want to do. My aunt, Joy and uncle, Ron have been so amazing and they've been so supportive of my photography. It makes me happy. Washington has always been my favorite place and I can't wait to move there. I'll be living here-

with four of my favorite people. I'll be able to see my two best friends graduate and my two little cousins grow up. I'm so excited. Working with my uncle will be a great experience and I know I'll learn a lot. Life is good.

-Janelle

Mercy

I am tired of people's shit.

Stop trying to be someone your not.

Ahh god people are annoying.

THIS IS WHAT YOU ARE :

- weed

- cigarettes

- selling weed? 

-  pretending to be my friend

- partying

- doing shitty stuff to stand out

- so ignorant

- self conscious 

GET OVER YOURSELF

I can't wait to make new friends!

- the bitch, jasmine