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I just want to cry.

I don't even know why I try to be friends with you.

2nd week

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I have had nothing but the worst headaches and annoyance of everything! We are back in conservatory, the first day, I was already annoyed as f__k! Anyway, today was something to write about. I woke up this morning thinking today was going to be a good day, I was in a good mood and felt really pretty. I went to school, seeing her, I don't even know what you are my friend. Emily and Andrea, awh, beautiful! I go to Mr. Grant's class, I was on a role, until someone who I am very interested in ( well no more ) said something mean to me. Ah, I hate boys! French was woddeulrhwah fine. Lunch goes by extremely fast, I hate it. I am not the type of girl to get jealous, but lately I have been, I also hate that ten times more! I noticed it so much today, I got so depressed. In a previous blog I was very angry with the world, mentioned that all everyone has become are druggies and alcoholics. Well, once again, here I go.....You are and I am sick of it. That is all that you guys talk about, like honestly, Im horrified. I got all sad again, finally school ended and the best friends knew something was wrong with me. All the sudden I just start crying in the hall way, for no apparent reason, well sorta'. I love getting calls from Emily and Drea rambling on about how much they love me, think I am a good friend, and all the above. My day got better in a second I swear. My daddy picked me up, we drove around then decided to go see Jake play his first high school football game. Damn, that kid is good at everything I tell ya.I had so much fun at that game even though, I was in riverside, in the outfits I wear, at a high school I have never been to. Hahah, the whole varsity football team was sitting behind me and holy they were HUGE and very attractive ( well most)! They were the funniest things in the world! Then I had these little black guys sitting next to me with their chains and are like " runn nigga runn" haha it was great! I am not going to lie, that is something I miss out of a normal high school experience. Thank god I have my normal h.s friends.  

I have come up with a fall back career if my singing career doesn't take place. HAh, it will so I don't have to worry, but I like to have idea's in mind! At first I was going to be a Crime Scene Investigator, but I'm definitely not smart enough. So I thought since I love food so much I would be one of those people who critics restaurants, but then I was just informed they have to write articles. So the first thing to come up with since there was nothing else......was a STRIPPER! My mother came up with that one actually, as a joke! Haha, until today I found my calling. As most of you know, I love to be creative and design things. Well, I was decorating a wedding and I was so picky on everything! I am going to be a wedding planner! How fun would that be! I think so! Goodddddddd.

Well, I love coming home to a message from Vazquez about us and how " no one understands our nunstable emotions" but only her and I. It is pretty great.

Tomorrow I will be singing at a wedding, which should be pretty exciting.

Sunday, I am going to go to Emmes house at 6 in the morning, lay on her bed, talk and cry with her. Then go to Laguna Niguel and raise money for Cameron<3

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-xoxo