Sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying

It's been forever since I've been on this. I have so much on my mind, and no one to really tell it too. I think I've learned a lot about myself and my friends the past few weeks. I don't know who I've become. It's so weird how things can change so quickly. It's like, nothing ever really happend. I've only felt this way like, once before and that was a while ago. So, I don't really know how this works, and I can't get myself to admit it. I've finally picked out a college, and can't wait to go. FIDM will be my new home. One year in Irvine and one year in LA. I'm so stoked and right now, that's the only thing keeping me from screwing up. Other than Jasmine's birthday party of course. I just don't know what to get her. But, she's my best friend, so she deserves anything and everything she wants. That's all.
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-Janelle